Alfie’s passing really hurt. More than I was expecting.
I have lost two dogs (Mira & Niki) at the age of 14 years and even when it is very hard, you have been preparing yourself for that. Ella was another thing. She was only about 2.5 years and loosing her was devastating. I only started to get over it when to boys (Eddie & Alfie) came about 6 months later.
Alfie was full of live. He would have turned 11 years in May.
On Wednesday things changed quickly and it was time to let him go. Alfie fell asleep peacefully.
When I came back home I broke down to tears. All the three dogs came to comfort me. Minnie licked my tears and Eddie continued.
Thursday was really hard. I could hardly breathe, that much I missed my sweet boy. Luckily I had friends to call. I went to horse stable to do hard physical work and that helped.
There are two things in my mind that I don’t have to regret:
- Did I love too much
- Was I too gentle
Same thing was present when I lost the other dogs, but more clearly now.
Does it really matter how well your dog does in shows or trials?
To me the main things are that you love your dog and try your best to offer them a good live. Everything else is a plus. And please do everything through joy. Not to gain any merit. At the end the only thing that really matters is love.
At the moment I’m dreaming about a new puppy in the summer. Alfie’s relatives maybe. Let’s see. Then in a way I would get Alfie back even a little bit.
The flatcoats fb group is wonderful. So many people supporting and saying kind words after Alfie’s passing. The main page in this blog post is a photo of Alfie with messages people have sent. There are so many wonderful messages that I cannot fit in one place but they really do comfort me during this difficult time. Thank you all.